Well, hello. It's been a while since I've talked to the lot of you. A month or so, might have been more. I have lost all track of time. So, for those who were worried and those who are interested in where I have been, I should explain myself. Things did not go too well in my personal life. I know I said that it was a web dysfunctionality, and that was a flat lie. I lied because I wanted to make sure no one was worried. There were more issues at home that I had to solve before I could feel like these issues would impact my life as an administrator here and as a trade moderator for FoG / SR. There are a few people I have to apologize to for lying about this, most noticably Tio. I kind of directly lied to your face about this while I shouldn't have. You've always been amazingly understanding to me about things and I should have talked to you about this. If people are interested in these aspects of my life specifically, feel free to talk to me. I won't tell you everything because there are a lot of mindwrecking things among it too. As for my disappearance, that wasn't from internet outage either. I actually created an alternate account and played with friends on there. Even got a bit of competitive experience on the way, just to chill out. I have like fifteen friends on that account, of which 12 I either know IRL or I go back a long time with (3+ years). Having this episode gone over, I've got to thinking. I'm feeling uncomfortable with having to let you all down a second time. It's painful to have people rely on you and not being able to fulfill expectations. Before everyone who cares gets afraid; I am not planning on quitting entirely. This community is a pretty nice corner of my mind to be in, and I've always been happy doing what I do here. In fact, I want to keep doing it for as long as I am allowed to by n0, the downs and chick. The thing is, I don't know how reliably I can do my job as both an admin and trade moderator anymore. I have absolutely nothing that guarantees I won't disappear for another month. I would love to keep being an administrator on here and helping out with the reports. However, considering that I won't be able to put up with a decent quotum, you might have to consider removing my green tag. I will most likely also revert my SR moderator application (if they have not denied it already), until I can be certain I can keep up with their requirements. I would like the input of the other guys on the team on this aswell, either in a private convo with each other or just plain on this thread, whichever you fancy. Should I get rid of the SR tag? Should I revert my application? Should I stop being an admin on orange? I'm sorry for making this a long dragged out story about self-pity and horrible lives. We should be happy here and unfortunately that's not really something I am able to display right now. I'm specifically sorry to the trade team for abandoning you in a busy community and to Luigi for immediately abandoning you upon being assigned as your mentor. @n0name @Downy @Downie @Tio José das Vacas @Chride2k8 |LZ| @Someone @- \/G - Luigi123 in particular. @Jozan @TriforceSmasher @Taco @Pointy You guys have been amazing buddies too. Always been able to vent if I needed to. And of course all the other members/admins in FoG. I love you all. ED: I should clear something up quickly. I'm not intending to leave. I'm intending to help out as much as I can and as much as you guys can accept my help.
Well good you come clean but just remember lies are hardly a solution. Usually it gets you into more shit than you want. But having that said, I think it should be possible to keep you around here. But I think that's another discussion that needs to be private. Will contact you on steam anyway, since I am a bit curious!
We're more than happy to allow you to stay here, and i think i speak for most people here. Personal problems are always problems no matter what you're doing. On a more personal note, if you need someone to talk to i'll be available almost 24/7 on steam, except for when im asleep if you have something on your heart that you want to speak about. I'll see you around somewhere dude, you take care with what you're gonna do.
I should clear something up quickly. I'm not intending to leave. I'm intending to help out as much as I can and as much as you guys can accept my help.
I feel sorry for you lad. I know what you're going through. But like i said, if you need any help feel free to hit me up. (Even though i'm not very active) Take care man.
You should do whatever feels best, I personally think you are quite good at what you do. (role model <3) If you ever need anything, just ask.
Well we got enough insane people to talk too if needed. Good to have you back just let us know next time you're going to go away we don't need a reason just let us know you're gone for awhile.
Hey Nick, it's been awhile, glad to have to back around. I'm not gonna give any opinions here, though I'll drop you a line in chat sometime. Hope you stay around, you'll always have my full support should you need
Hey man, you provided endless help to me when you were my mentor and still afterwards. You tried to buy me a steam game when you were drunk once. In my opinion you are an incredible asset to this community. I would take part time F7are over no F7are any day. And while I am sure you are getting no end of offers of people who are they for you to talk to. I will offer the same as well. Life sucks and sometimes all you want to do is hide from the world for a while. Been there, done that. So if sometime similar happens in future please feel free to ask; if you need me to help out with mentoring or anything similar.
Nick, my beloved Nick You're always welcome in my arms whenever you need to vent or to feel a soft hug from those that appreciate you a bunch. I'm happy to have read this, knowing you're alright.