Well... What should I say? A part of my private life just committed suicide (figuratively speaking. Noone is dead... so far) and I feel much like doing the same (no worries, I won't). I will surely not be reapplying for admin because of those recent events... I feel like shit and really depressed just now. Hell, I'm only able to share this with you... people I barely know. You can ask, I won't answer. Just letting you know... Try not to have false hopes... life is the biggest and meanest bitch there is.